-- Posted by jmwbaby123 at 5:38 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 I finnaly figured out i do not really know who my friends are..and who to trust...and who really is down for me...i found out my fam. isnt and that hurts cause there sposed to ride for you...but for me there never there and it really hurts it hurts me that i try to make my fam. happy but yett they still are rude as hell to me...im really tired of changing for people...why should i have to change for fam?...and i deff. dont understand how one of your gurls of niggas can do you so wrong...and all of a sudden stab you in the back...i was ALWAYS down for anyone who cared no matter the situation...i would die for my friends or fam. but yett they do me all wrong and shit? i dont get it....i trusted ppl i THOUGHT were my friend and then they take the thing that they know about me and would hurt me the most and throw it back in my face and thats grimy as hell...i dont know how ppl could do that...i could honestly never do that to someone that is 100% grimy...and how can someone that DONT even know me call me shit and disrespect me? first off dont EVER disrespect me if you dont know me cause i stand it...and secondly if you dont know me keep my name out your mouth. damn i basically hate errbody...i dont need no nigga or none of my gurls OR my fam keepin it real for me anymore cuase in the end all i got is me and im done tryin to make the whole damn world happen cause guess what it never works...so im done...im not gon live for no one else but for me...and jus have faith in GOD and maybe that will get me somewhere so in conclusion i have NO idea who my true friends are i have NO idea who is real and whos not...i have no idea who to trust...so  i just wont say much to no one and wont trust no one and everything will be okay...maybe then ill find some REAL ppl....dont get my wrong though i know a couple of ppl that are real (i think) but hey we will find out. p.s i know my grammar was ass in this...i was upset so i didnt take time to correct shit or write long words out so dont sit there and bitch deal   -- Posted by Cowgirl89 at 5:43 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 *hugs* -- Posted by toosie at 5:43 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 go out and have a walk in a park or something. that might make u feel better. *hugs* i hope everything will turn out OK soon. Things will eventually loosen up someday, no matter how worse it is/was. Keep ur chin high, trust ur instincts , judgement and GOD. God will guide u through the way. -- Posted by Cocopuff at 5:44 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 U sound really angry girl but you right as long as you have your faith in God you'll be perfectly fine! Keep ya head up! -- Posted by jmwbaby123 at 6:00 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 Quote: from Cocopuff at 8:44 pm on Feb. 7, 2007 U sound really angry girl but you right as long as you have your faith in God you'll be perfectly fine! Keep ya head up! its not the i am an angry person its just i have been surrounded by hate..and ive basically always held my tounge...and i cant anymore and i just started typing and it all came out