-- Posted by crabigailrose at 8:54 pm on Feb. 15, 2007 I hate my school. It has one of the highest suicide and depression rates in the country and now I know why. I have always been a pretty happy person but since I"ve come here I just want to kill myself. Or something. Classes are harder than hell, and right now my professers are trying to get rid of me. No lie. They tell us they try to scare people away by being assholes to us underclassmen to weed us out. I hate it here There is a 4:1 guys to girls ratio, which is pretty sweet, not gonna lie but some days it sucks. I talk to one girl here. All my guyfriends want to do is play video games and talk sports, and sometiems I just want to ask someone how I should do my hair. And they are so freaking sexist! I know they don't really mean it but when all I hear is my guyfriends telling me to do their laundry, make their beds, cook them dinner... they tell me thats all I'm good forMy chem lab TA used to tell me that women belonged in the kitchen, not the lab. My boyfriend dumped me and now I feel so alone. my best friend has gotten so sucked into her relationship that when I called her in tears just to talk, she blew me off because she was hanging out with him. I have hung out with her maybe 3 times since they started dating 6 months ago and when I do get to see her she is constantly txting him. I feel like I don't have anybody anymore. All my friends were my bf's friends, and while they really are my freinds it is awkward to hagn out with them. Bro's before hos, they won't not hang out with him to hang out with me. I just want to go home but everything that made home home is packed in a cardbored box shoved in the garage. I don't even have a room there anymore I don't have any motivation anymore. I used to get straight A's, and I didn't even pull a 2.0 last semester even though I tried as hard as I could. This school makes me feel stupid, I really don't know if I can do it. But I can't transfer anywhere. My parents won't help me out unless I go here or the school back home which doesn't have my major. I've never been depressed before. Sure Ive been stressed and unhappy. I've been through some tough shit but I always made it through. I've never felt like this. All I do is sleep. Sleep and eat. But most days I don't eat because I can't afford to. I hate this. I hate my life. -- Posted by Enigma of Eternity at 8:57 pm on Feb. 15, 2007 Well, as far as the school goes- my advice WOULD be to transfer, but thats obviously not an option. maybe scout out some new friends-- if not in the school, then maybe in a nearby town? *hugs* -- Posted by cammie at 9:04 pm on Feb. 15, 2007 transfer?