-- Posted by Mayfair at 5:55 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 Ok to be blunt .. I was clean for 2 yrs and now am back as a heavy cocaine user .. I havn't touched it for a few days and am feeling furious , shitty , down , short tempered etc basically comes with the come down symptoms .. Now this is the difficult part am going to be djin soon and me being on it gives the best perfomance because i've got that energy and plus I got a place to sniff ... Now I have a ex gf who everyday I hope to get back with her and I want to show her that am no longer a addict and everything I do well most things I do is for her and I want to go clean and learn how to control my addiction and learn how to say no. Now I know it isnt easy going clean but i've done it before but I need to know how to re-inforce it. Lately i've been so distant with everyone and bottling things up but that emotional wall got broken and I broke down and I realise I don't want to be that same person. There's alot of shit happening to me at the moment and I don't handle most of it well. I have a gf at the moment but for the wrong reasons and am scared to breaking it off with her because i work with her and plus some other issues. And she does speed which doesn't help me in anyway apart from keeping me awake for a few days on the go. I've been to the phycologist before and got let down so decided to never get help from them and i've been on anti depressants etc etc and diagonsed with bi-polar but the meds made me extremely depressed and violent and low. Where do I start? -- Posted by Blackberry Storm at 5:57 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 Go back to the Psychologist. -- Posted by Dr Billi at 5:57 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 start small, go talk to someone about all of this, dont let yourself carry the burden of all of these emotions.  youll feel loads better.  go from there. -- Posted by igotaquestion at 5:57 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 u start by flushing your stash -- Posted by Mayfair at 5:59 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 I cant go back cause all i get is meds n i hit a brick wall. ive done it before on my own but this time theres alot more to deal with. -- Posted by sarah2006 at 6:01 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 Go to a Psychologist if you have to -- Posted by chelseaernest at 6:15 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 first off. ditch the chick. tell her, her being on drugs doesn't help you get clean. next off.   you need to surround your self with people, support. who will watch you at all times. And help you control your addiction. now i have *ALSO* battled addiction, however it was a different case of addiction, but surrounding yourself with people you care about who can make sure your not doing cocain will help. It's gunna be SO hard.. but other people will help and you can't do it by yourself.  you need to be supervised at all time. NEXT set limitations. like... no doing coke between 9am and 5pm and every week cut off another hour. and no doing coke a certin amout of hoursd befor work. if you are BIpolar and WANT or need medication then go to the phycologist. if you don't then don;t go back. Phycologists arn't for everyone. and don't bottle things up either.  let things out as they come. maybe get some anger management? anywho. PM me anytime. -- Posted by xroses are redx at 7:00 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 We're in the same boat, my friend. All I can say is: professional help. Go see a new phsychologist, you need one. You need to get the correct medication for your emotional dissorders first. You need the right type of medication that wont cause side effects (yes, it's possible) Being bipolar makes you want to do drugs. You get down, so you do something like coke, to make you happy. Then things just get worse, trust me, I'm bipolar too. So once your bipolar's out of the way, and you dont have mood swings, quitting drugs will be much easier. Then, talk to the psychologist about the drugs. Maybe even go to rehab? If you just need to quit on your own its good to have a therapist/psychologist to talk to. Then you'll have a clear mind and you can figure out what to do about the ex and the new girlfriend. Although I'm pretty sure the new girlfriend is no good, you need to stay away from people who do drugs if you want to stay clean yourself. -- Posted by La Motta at 4:30 am on Jan. 18, 2008 I understand your situation completely, it's not easy but like myself i think you need to talk to someone. -- Posted by casesensitive30 at 6:50 pm on April 6, 2008 do some research and find a therpaist or counselor who won't perscribe drugs and council you about your feelings. I've been to therapy before and it really helps you learn how to deal with your life and problems.   -- Posted by JeremyM at 5:37 am on April 18, 2008 Quote: from chelseaernest at 9:15 pm on Dec. 19, 2007 NEXT set limitations.   like... no doing coke between 9am and 5pm and every week cut off another hour.   and no doing coke a certin amout of hoursd befor work. You're fucking retarded. I used to be there and it's hard to get out of an addiction...however, do NOT follow this person's advice. Cut an hour off every week? Only do coke between 5pm and 9am? What the fuck is that? Cold turkey my man. Cut it cold turkey. You'll be an asshole for a week or three...but you'll eventually realize you're better than coke. Jam on, sir!   -- Posted by Rickenbacker at 6:15 pm on April 20, 2008 What meds have you been on? SSRI's (standard anti-depressants) don't work for people with bipolar in general and I've never heard them work for anyone really. Maybe try something like Lithium- it could change your life for the better. -- Posted by Passing By at 12:06 pm on July 26, 2008 Quote: from Rickenbacker at 6:15 pm on April 20, 2008 What meds have you been on? SSRI's (standard anti-depressants) don't work for people with bipolar in general and I've never heard them work for anyone really. Maybe try something like Lithium- it could change your life for the better. yeah, right just switch from one drug to anothers -- Posted by Rickenbacker at 12:15 pm on July 26, 2008 Quote: from Passing By at 3:06 pm on July 26, 2008 Quote: from Rickenbacker at 6:15 pm on April 20, 2008 What meds have you been on? SSRI's (standard anti-depressants) don't work for people with bipolar in general and I've never heard them work for anyone really. Maybe try something like Lithium- it could change your life for the better. yeah, right just switch from one drug to anothers Yeah, they are completely different classes of drugs. He was probably on something exclusively for depression and needs a mood-stabilizer or antipsychotic. -- Posted by Johvanni at 11:00 pm on July 27, 2008 Honestly, Bro I will be praying for you, who ever you are I hope you get better. I have seen friends ruin there lifes because of these addictions . its hard for them to quit because they are afraid of what they will become or have been to boxed up to feel what life is really about.So what do they do, keep filling themselves of that poison that makes them dead to this world.In other words they just want to be in there little world.Well my friend its time for you to break out of that box, I would tell you no psychologist is going to help you.Get into a treatment program and do it. and you might awaken to the reality that you are a special person in this world.Do it for you and not for her or anyone else