-- Posted by La Motta at 4:09 am on Jan. 18, 2008 Ok, hello everyone, this is my first post and i just wanted to let you know my situation then if i could get some feedback, it would be much appreciated. In July of 06 i started a new job, i was on a year off and i had year until i started college. So while i was at this new job i made new friends, trouble was that they were heavy drug users, mainly coke and ecstasy. Before i met them, i never would've dreamed that i'd start using. I done my first e in January of 07, i loved it, i just felt so comfortable chatting away to my new friends about who knows what..... My girlfriend started to notice a change in me, when she confronted me, i simply told her to f@#k off, and lied and told her i never even loved her. It was the first time i've ever made anybody cry, and i was pleased with myself. Every weekend or second weekend of last year i could not go out to a club without doing lines or e's. I started off doing just one pill at a time, pretty soon i was doing up to ten a night. I lost all my old friends, my best friend told me he never wants to hear from me again. But at the beginning of this month i decided now was the time for change, so i have given up alcohol, e and coke. I have been sober for 3 weeks now, but i feel like shit. That is being honest, i can't get any joy from anything anymore. When i listen to a song that may reference drugs, i shudder. And most of my favourite films include drug use, i just don't feel the same about anything anymore. I have decided o stop talking to/hanging with the guys from work, but i don't know if this is the best option, because then i'll be left with no friends at all. I know i only have myself to blame, but that doesn't stop me from feeling depressed. I was wondering if i should join an addiction help group, but my will power has been strong for the past few weeks i don't know if i need external help. Any thoughts on the matter? -- Posted by oddminority at 4:15 am on Jan. 18, 2008 well if you're asking us for advice, i'd say that you'd need external help... not only would joining an addiction group help you cope with things a little bit better but it may just help you get your mind off of losing everyone you cared about... and it could possibly help you find new friends who feel the same way as you do. -- Posted by Iampureevil1 at 4:21 am on Jan. 18, 2008 =( I think that you need to continue with your soberity, thats a good new years resolution. As for the matter. Are you still happy you made your GF cry? I don't know if you'd be able to get back together with your friends, short of falling to your knees and shouting "I've changed!" This forum is a little inactive at the moment, you should repost it in a few hours to get a better response. -- Posted by La Motta at 4:27 am on Jan. 18, 2008 Ah ok thanks. No i feel terrible that i made another person feel bad, but i think she has a new boyfriend now and is happy