-- Posted by GhostX at 9:32 pm on Feb. 22, 2008 I'm self conscious, actually in more ways than one. I often think of myself in social situations instead of focusing on what the other person is saying to me and that has messed me up plenty of times before. I have kind of a one track mind where I can only focus on one thing at a time, thats kind of ADD in a nut shell, heh. It's just that when I do focus on something, that one thing is so vivid in detail and I know exactly how it works and what caused it and where it came from and where it's going... all these technical details run through my head so fast, it's kind of hard to keep up with but I have gotten better at doing it. I can keep track of all the technical details so much better now and it's not hard to focus on one thing... multiple things at once though, thats a diffrent story. I just cant have too many things happening at once because I try to focus on all the details of everything, it all usually gets too jumbled up with diffrent thoughts getting mixed up with eachother for me to process it all. Like if 2 people talk to me at one time I will try to focus on both of them at the same time and when it comes time for me to answer, I have no idea about anything that was said. I'm too easily distracted in a lot of situations because there are too many things going on... even if it's just a thought running through my head as I'm talking to some one, I have to choose which one I want to listen to or I wont retain what the person said or my thought out of it in the end. I have ADD pretty bad. What I just wrote explanes how it is pretty well actually, I have never been able to put it into words before... I guess it's when my mind says "oh this is going to be a dream" That thought cant exist with my dream thought because I don't know which one to focus on, I end up just blank and dumbfounded by the complexity going through my mind and I can never get to sleep. When I start the downward spiral in my mind, one thought leads to another so I have 3 thoughts and I realize what I'm doing so another one is created and more and more until I cant focus on anything in my mind at all. I can never get to sleep when my mind does this, it's always trying to figure something out. I really need to find a way out of this thought spiral, some kind of loop hole that I can jump through to get all these pointless thoughts out of my head. I have thought about trying to stop it before it starts but it's so complex that before I realize it, I'm already doing it again. Please help me work something out, my mind is so crazy!