-- Posted by ashopahollic at 1:00 am on Mar. 19, 2008 background: i moved to israel 3 years ago (going into high school) from america and was noooot happy in america i was student council prez of my grade and a straight a student here i got mixxed up with a crowd of kids that just drank and got high all the time... i never got high but already in 9th grade i was drunk a couple nights a week i knew persoanlly all the bartenders and bouncers of bars in "town..." and could go and get it anywhere i wanted... i became the easy girl to get with in my group of friends and everyone else thought of me as a slut. my parents were really young when they had me (19 but married already) and are still really naive. they only realised that i drank at the end of 10th grade (nearly two years after i started)... basically i got suuuper wasted and passed out in front of my house before i had the chance to get inside and to bed like id usually do. anyway they tried getting me help but i refused... i liked the way i was... whatever finally after someone i knew got killed from to much to drink i realised how dangerous i was being... in the middle of 11th grade (a year ago) i started to get my head straight and i left the group i was in more or less... i wont say the people i hang out with now are angels becuase were deffinatly not.. were still considered somewhat bad-ass and wtvr but im cool with that... no one gets high we go into town once in and ive got a steady boyfriend... my parents are okay with the arangement and so am i... my grades have improved enormously from failing to b's and c's... everyone is so proud of me except me... i still want my a's back... but i find it really hard to consentrate on studying... the language is hard for me to understand still and in general i spend a lot of time wishing that i was in town drunk and dancing on a bar... a couple weeks ago i cracked and had a couple shots before i started studying thinking maybe it would calm me down... and it did i got a 98 on my bio test... i dont wana go back to the place i was but reccently ive been acing tests and all it takes is a bottle of absolute... im not an alcoholic am i? i dont need to have it it just helps me focus and its only for a couple more months unti i grad...