-- Posted by Baseball25girl at 10:27 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 I just feel like I'm a burden to everyone, thinking of causing no more pain to them. What did I do to deserve getting treated like shit? I seriously thought of ending it all, the pain I'm in. Why do I feel like I don't matter? Is it my fault? I wish they would just all disappear and leave me the fuck alone -- Posted by Merlinman2005 at 10:28 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 Who do you want to leave you alone? -- Posted by Baseball25girl at 10:31 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 My parents. My sister and her husband. My little brother. Always blaming me for shit I didn't do. -- Posted by Merlinman2005 at 10:32 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 If you know you didn't do it, and if they don't punish you, then just tell yourself "I'm better than them for knowing the truth." Don't argue with them too much.  If they show that they won't understand you didn't do anything, then be glad they're not punishing you. -- Posted by Baseball25girl at 10:35 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 My siblings used to abuse me, I have no self esteem. My parents refuse to help me pay for college. I have always been there for my whole family, they just act like I'm garbage. I have attempted suicide before and I'm very close to the breaking point. -- Posted by Merlinman2005 at 10:39 pm on Mar. 19, 2008 http://www.golivewire.com/forums/resources.cgi They can help where we cannot. I used to have no self esteem, then I realized that everyone else pretty much sucked donkey balls.  They don't matter.  I realized that I can't trust them for shit, and I am my own best friend. I want you to try to contact somebody in that link, or if they can't help you, to PM me. -- Posted by Will Smith at 8:25 pm on Mar. 23, 2008 "My siblings used to abuse me, I have no self esteem. My parents refuse to help me pay for college. I have always been there for my whole family, they just act like I'm garbage. " - QUOTED I've always been like that to my family too, Always have been loyal to them, if there was something going on behind their backs, they were always the first to know about it (Just like the GodFather. XD) If they were not gratefull for what I had done, then I didn't need to be gratefull for anything they have done. Just change your attitude towards them. And stop saying you have self steem. The more you repeat that into your head, the worst it is. Hope it have been helpfull