-- Posted by lilac at 9:02 am on Mar. 25, 2008 OK, I'm at my b/f's. I spend a couple ays at his house and well I'm going home later today. Anyway, I had my notepad out in front of him on the page where I wrote stuff that would make me happy. I forgot some stuff I wrote there and he read some crazy stuff. I'm so embaresst. I wrote I wish I got a little fa all ove and he read it. He then asked me about it in a weird way as in am I serious? I had n ochoice but to confess. Truth is though, I was already in councelling for this. About my body and wanting to be fat. Not exactly fat, but well I'm too skinny. When I tell people my age there in shock. I'm 5 feet 1, weighting 106 pounds. Or something like that anyway. But ya. Anyway I'm feelin so embaresst about it cause my b/f read it. So now he probably knows I'm self concious. Well kind of. Truth is though I'm not as self concious as I used to be. And I didn't write tat stuff recently. I wrote it in like January or December last year. I do feel though that I can't wait to get pregnant sometimes. I know I'll put on weight then. Like I'm tired of people comparing me to my sister who is bigger than me and younger. She's 19 and 5 feet 6 or 7 got bigger breasts a bigger butt and everything. I really try hard not to let it bother me cause I know I'm m own person and whatnot, but sometimes it crosses my mind. When I see other girls, girls thathave the hair I like and body type I like, I wish I was them. My b/f says he like me the way I am, but something tells me he likes the ideal girls that I like and want to look like. The girls who are flexible, kind of fat, got the long hair or long wavy hair. And stuff. Anyway hair and weight has been an issue for me for a lon time now, I'm not sure what to do to get help. Any ideas? And now my b/f probably knows what goes through my mind half the times. -- Posted by starzee88 at 9:09 am on Mar. 25, 2008 I bet everything is fine. I wouldnt be worried about that if i were you. But if you want to gain a little weight you should maybe eat alot of junk food. that kind of stuff. People cant help how under weight they are sometimes metabolism is to high. -- Posted by Al Legator at 9:15 am on Mar. 25, 2008 It's not only anorexic girls who have body image problems and you have a problem. - about what you wrote in the past..fuggetaboutid- it's in the past. you are embarrassed he read it? It's not a big deal to him so why is it to you? Your image of your body is also biased. He likes you the way you are. He was attracted to you the way you are. He has said so! Why do you assume he's wrong and that you know more about what's in his mind and heart than he does? If you are basing it on the likely fact that once in a while he looks at other girls...well don't fall into that trap. Guys will look at other girls. Period. It means nothing except that they like girls. It does NOT mean any more than that. It certainly does not mean that he prefers some other girl because she has bigger breasts or whatever. He prefers you and he's said so. Your insecurity about your body image could harm the relationship while you try to measure up on someone else's chart. -- Posted by lilac at 3:53 pm on Mar. 25, 2008 Quote: from starzee88 at 9:09 am on Mar. 25, 2008 I bet everything is fine. I wouldnt be worried about that if i were you. But if you want to gain a little weight you should maybe eat alot of junk food. that kind of stuff. People cant help how under weight they are sometimes metabolism is to high. I can't eat alot of junk food, I have a high cholesterol.....Is there any kind of meds that can  help make someone who's skinny to gain weight? I know that sounds crazy, but am wondering. -- Posted by JeremyM at 7:13 am on April 18, 2008 To OP...what? I can't understand more than 50% of your post. Type clearly, not retardedly. K THX!