-- Posted by Anonymous at 5:27 pm on Mar. 31, 2008 Last week i was really suicidal and really down. I have a boyfriend and normally hes the only person that can cheer me up but i talked to him a lot last week and even he couldn't do anything. I saw him on Sunday and that didn't even help. I don't know why i was feeling that way. Nothing significant had happened to me. i was just really depressed. and then last night when things were at there worst and i was actually contemplating ending it my brother rang to say that his partner had given birth to their little boy. that cheered me up automatically and then i went and met him today and i promised myself i wouldn't end it. Kyle is my first nephew and i don't have any nieces. hes absolutely gorgeous and hes made me want to keep living. but i'm worried that once all the excitement is over about this new bub then i'll go back to being as suicidal as i was before. i don't want that. i don't want to die. i love life.... but i just can't help feeling the way i was feeling. what should i do? i've tried counselling before and it never worked.