-- Posted by ElephantStone at 2:11 pm on April 2, 2008 For the first time in a long time im feeling positive that i can pull things together with Catherine now. I mean shes 22, but its not like Ive never pulled a girl older than her. I got a 24 year old and a 21 year old last July. I was only 17 then. Im 18 now. Shes 22, and its still 4 years, but at least i can legally be in nightclubs and buy drink and fags, etc. I have to be good looking enough for her. I mean everynight I go out, more girls are coming on to me. And from the moment she saw me she couldnt leave me alone. Two of her friends talk to me, even though I never worked with them. They smile and ask how I am. And if theyre not serving me in the shop theyre looking over at me, and theyre 22 too. However theres Catherine's other friend that I never managed to hit it off with. And I think she advised Catherine not to have anything to do with me at the start....she sees me as 4 years younger. Its been 10 months since Catherine and I talked last. 10 months is a long time, but theres still something there, I know it. I mean why else when I oped the bar door and shes standing the otherside with a group of friendds and I stop dead and shes looking at me, and we're holding eye contact for a long time. Why is her and that bitchy friend watching me when i was pissed in a nightclub talking to two guys I knew and trying to fing out who wants to fight me? Why, when Catherine is dancing with a friend and theyre holding hands and swinging them and they hit me, does catherine stand with her hands beside her sides looking at me? 10 months is a long time, and things get forgotten quickly. But theres still this. If she didnt care she wouldnt be holding eye contact, she wouldnt be bothered if I get hit when shes dancing. Id just be some guy she used to know. Why are her friends paying attention to me, trying to get to know me? She has to still care.