-- Posted by tastetherainbow at 9:21 am on May 16, 2008 I dont know what to do anymore. I have been a cutter for a while but I scared myself so much that I have been trying to stop. It has been almost 6 weeks since I have cut and a month was the longest that I have ever gone. So this is a long time for me. Two nights ago I got the urge to cut again. I recently moved in for summer school with my friend and my bed is up really high. So when I felt the need to cut, I just curled up under my head and cried and shook for maybe an hour. She was finally able to help me through it but all I could think was, "what about next time?" sad to say, next time came last night. I was under my bed again but my roomy was havinga good time next door so I didnt want to bother her. I decided to go for a walk. I think I was out for almost 3 hours? Maybe 2. Thankfully, I was able to get myself through it alone. I just know how much longer I can fight these feelings. They are killing me! -- Posted by itachianddraco09 at 9:45 am on May 16, 2008 I have been a cutter too and i know how you feel           -- Posted by dood25 at 9:47 am on May 16, 2008 It's great that you haven't cut for 6 weeks.  I'm not a cutter, so I don't know how challenging it must be, but I'm rooting for ya. -- Posted by swtpie at 10:00 am on May 16, 2008 Keep going strong. You can stop! -- Posted by bluerosedangel at 7:01 am on May 23, 2008 Quote: from dood25 at 9:47 am on May 16, 2008 It's great that you haven't cut for 6 weeks. I'm not a cutter, so I don't know how challenging it must be, but I'm rooting for ya. I agree that I've never been a cutter, but I had many sucidal thoughts in high school, but I had  a GUN. And nothing puts more sense into your head until you have it pointing at your head. And there were so many times I had it pointing there, bc so many people didnt care. But I got tough and got thru it. So I'm glad for you, and congratulations. It's really hard. Props to you.