-- Posted by Raging Inferno at 1:30 pm on June 2, 2008 The agony...the sheer agony. Horrid visions of me, me laying all by myself on the floor, dead. I'm so screwed up right now. Can't take this... What the hell is happening to me? It won't stop... make it stop...make it stop.....it won't stop... There's no one to talk to. No one. I'm feeling so broken right now..... I see you...I see you...I can't....I just can't. Looking into my eyes. I can't do it. I can feel you looking, please stop..you don't know what you are doing to me. I don't even know how anymore. This has to be a dream.... can't type any more......falling to pieces... -- Posted by nikki at 1:48 pm on June 2, 2008 Wow, that's some immense stuff there. I've replied to a few of your topics so I think I've got at least some idea of what you're going through, but eesh, that sounds...bad. I know you feel like you can't trust anyone and that everyone is against you because of what you went through in the past, but I still really think that you need to talk to someone about this. I doubt that you'll want to get any professional help, even though I think that's the best thing for you. You seem to use this forum as a way to vent your feelings, which is great, but have you tried writing a journal of some sorts? It can really, really help to get stuff out of your head and onto paper. It's a lot clearer when it's all layed out infront of you, and it can really help to put things in perspective. Please, feel free to PM me at anytime, or at least reply to this topic if you want. I'd love to be able to help you.