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-- Posted by Uniq0ne at 5:09 am on June 3, 2008

Ok I've got this problem... and its VERY serious. Here's what it is. And it only relates to 2 things. Sleep and Going Places.

Ok when it gets late I tell myself I don't want to sleep because I want to stay up and do things. But then I'm always pissed off because of why I think like that. I want to get tired and fall asleep early and wake up normal! Instead of just staying awake until I crash and pretty much feint from sleep deprivation!

You see... I could just go to sleep right now and fall straight to sleep, but half myself doesn't want to because I'd rather be on here doing things.

Same thing with going places with friends. Let's say a friend calls me and asks me if I want to go on a road trip with him. I'll be all excited and want to go. But when the time comes to actually go I get all freaked and won't want to go because I want to stay home.

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!

If I could fix these 2 things I would be so damn happy!  

Ok honestly what I think it may be is a serious addiction to my computer, but I have no idea how to solve it because I just absolutley cannot break away from it at night... Yeah you see its only at night. In the day I can get off whenever. But when it hits night and I'm up in my room I just can't get off because I'd rather be awake than sleep. But remember half my mind wants me to sleep.

fuck... lol I'm sorry I don't mean to sound like some lunatic but this is real and this is how I've been thinking  


-- Posted by nikki at 7:03 am on June 3, 2008

I'll start with your computer addiction - I think you need to gradually cut down on how much you use your computer. It sounds to me like you really need to find some other hobbies that don't revolve around technology. Have you tried joining a sports team or some sort of society which would get you out of the house? I think the main reason you're attached to your computer is it's safe. You're in control of your computer and how much you use it, so you feel safer being at home rather than outside.

But, it's really important that you get outside and do something. Go out with your friends when they invite you, go out to the cinema or out to the park to play football - anything. Staying inside on the computer the whole time isn't healthy - everyone needs to go outside and socialise occasionally - we all need human contact. A computer screen isn't an adquate substitute for that, even though you may use it to communicate.

At night, you need to get off the computer about half an hour before you get to bed. Turn it off and find something else to do so your mind is taken off having to do stuff on the computer. Maybe read a book, take a shower, watch something on TV - anything. If you give yourself half an hour "downtime" before bed, it can help your mind relax and it might help you sleep.

Good luck :)


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