-- Posted by iconoclast at 12:16 am on June 5, 2008 i might sound like a fun person, but i dont care. i literally dont truly enjoy anything about life. so i treat life like some kind of video game, and it distracts me from all the douchebaggery and dumbfuckerry out there. and i kind of get 'high on life too'. but its bullshit, cause every once in awhile i get a stark reminder that im emotionally isolated from everyone. and i hate denying reality but thats all is avaliable, some stupid fucking video game. theres no substance readily available to me, just deceit, false appearances, bullshit 'relationships', naive idiots, and more of the same status quo. no significant departure, no huge variation. oh im sure there are good people out there, but i cant stand an introverted lifestyle or just having a few really good friends in between. because im extremely opposite. so that leaves me fucked, because most outgoing people are stupid fuckasses. i cant stand their fucking guts. bloody miserable fucking idiots.   oh and i dont want to go back to being 'high on life' and getting really into things that don't matter because it doesnt really fulfill anything deeper but thats all i have. everything is so empty, and just like in some dumb game where you do the same shit over and over, im powerless to do anything about shit. to me this struggle between perceived reality and a closed 'world' one creates to deny an intolerable perceived reality is what drives a lot of people 'bipolar' but thankfully i have good emotional control and more objectivity and perspective. man was i miserable awhile ago but now im just stagnant and bored. bored to fucking death, 24/7. so bored i could rip my eyes out and i like to deny this obviously, most like to, but its the truth in my eyes as much as i hate it. society and most people are boring as fuck, and ignorant shallow morons, at least in their present states. ya know, if youve seen the film idiocracy, its funny for like two hours, but if you were in that actual situation for years, youd stop laughing. idiocy is disgusting good night -- Posted by Charolastra at 9:03 am on July 5, 2009 Due to so much discussion in the SL group about TSF, I thought I'd come see for myself. I found this and I think I may know what you're going through so I really hope you will find this reply to be of value. I'm outgoing and most of my friends are outgoing and I don't think I'm stupid and neither do I feel all my friends are. Life is often like a dumb game, like Livewire or like anything else. But since life is the only thing we have to hold onto and without it, we would just not exist, it makes sense to play this dumb game and do well at it. You're a SL here, a well-liked member and on top of that a moderator. You found a way to excel at this Livewire game and clearly you see benefit to doing this, right? Real life is often the same way, but much more competitive and much more challenging. But it matters. It's nice to have something to hold onto however, like an education, or a career, or possession, or maybe even a significant other from time to time to keep life refreshed. I'm sorry that you feel your life is stagnant, but have you wondered what you can do to enhance it? The first step would be to set goals for yourself, something to look forward to, something to accomplish, something to wake up to. Are you enrolled into a university? CC? There are so many resources out there available if you require financial support or anything like that. Setting goals for yourself would be a nice first step. It makes you have something or someone to look forward to. There is a world of opportunity out there so why not make the best out of this dumb game? This may have been a somewhat rehearsed topic but if you feel like you want to seriously talk or just someone to listen to what you're going through, my inbox is always open. Take care.