-- Posted by Anonymous at 4:31 pm on June 11, 2008 Back in September of 2007 I was raped.  I woke up with a painful ass, cum on my face, and a dick in my mouth.  He had gotten me drunk in order to sexually harass me like that.  I kicked him out of my house immediately once I realized what was going on.  It took me three days to get over the rape. I honestly don't care that that thing happened me anymore.  Yet many rape victims take longer to recover.  Why do I not give a shit?  Is there something wrong with me or am I just the sickest individual on Earth? -- Posted by AndWhenHeFalleth at 5:21 pm on June 11, 2008 It doesn't necessarily mean anything is wrong with you.  Different people process things differently. Example: The Saturday before Memorial Day, my "uncle" shot himself, and I found him.  My best friend (who was his blood nephew) was at the house with me, and saw him right after I did.  We were equally close to the man.  I'm not okay.  He is.  According to our PTS counselor, the major difference between us is our memory.  I have an alright short term memory.  His is nearly non-existent (apparently a result of several motorcycle accidents).   From what she said, memories start off in your short term memory, and are eventually processed and sent to your long term memory.  You remember things vividly when they're still in your short term memory and memories become more distant once they reach your long term memory.   My short term memory acts pretty much typically.  With my friend, he either forgets, or its flipped straight over to his long term memory, so everything is always more distant for him, so he might handle your situation the same as you, while I'd be traumatized. I'm probably not explaining things completely correctly, but that's how I understood it. Anyways, again, there's nothing wrong with you.  If anything, you're lucky. -- Posted by KathyN at 1:28 am on June 12, 2008 The reason you are worried about feeling ok with what happened and the reason you wrote it anonymously is that you are not completely ok with that.... at least I think so. It seems that you are trying to ignore some of your feelings and forget about it. There is nothing wrong, it is just your way of coping with that kind of trauma. *hugs* -- Posted by Anonymous at 1:33 am on June 12, 2008 Eeh, I dunno.  I think maybe I did experience some psychological trauma.  I talked about it with my best friend earlier tonight (she's the only one I've told) and yeah, I think I'm trying to not think about it. -- Posted by chelseamorgan at 7:25 am on June 12, 2008 Your not a sick individual, you just cope different than other people. Some people might be distressed for a really long time rather than get over it quicker. Everyone deals with things differently, depending on their personalities. Also, I think its good that you can make a recovery from this. If you sit the rest of your life and dwell on it and me sad or angry about it, then your life can never move on. Putting bad things in the past and not obsessively thinking about them is a good thing, in my opinion. Good luck, and PM me for anything. :) xx Chelsea -- Posted by amiee at 8:12 am on June 12, 2008 You're certainly not a sick individual for the way you're feeling right now. I mean, who dictates how a person should react after something like rape? We normally hear of people being deeply hurt and having to face all sorts of emotional troubles after a rape for a really long time, but I do know that there are people who go through something like rape and deal with it in an entirely different way - much like how you're dealing with it now. I have no idea why you don't care what happened to you, but if I were you, I'd spend more time on the things that are bothering you than the things that aren't. I mean, you mentioned that yourself that you're trying not to think about it. Why so? Is it painful for you, does it make you feel things emotionally that you just don't want? Perhaps you should let yourself think about it, and try coming to terms with how thinking about it makes you feel. You can concern yourself with the things you're not experiencing if you so wish, but I'm not sure that's actually going to get you anywhere. However, taking a look at the things you are feeling might help in the long run - if there are feelings there that you're choosing to ignore, I reckon they're best dealt with sooner rather than later. They do need to be dealt with. And if you really are ok, if you feel you've dealt with everything emotionally, then try not to worry about it. I do completely understand why you're concerned, but just because you're not experiencing some of the feelings you hear about in a rape victim, well, I don't think it necessarily means there's anything wrong with you. I think it's really good that you've told someone, though, and you know that person's there should you ever need to talk about it. All I can really say is do what feels right. That's all a person can really ever do. -- Posted by medjai at 9:58 pm on June 13, 2008 Looks to me like you're still having problems with it, since you're worried about the fact that you're not worried about it. Kind of like when people feel guilty because they're not mourning a death as badly as the people around them. -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:44 am on June 14, 2008 Quote: from medjai at 8:28 am on June 14, 2008 Looks to me like you're still having problems with it, since you're worried about the fact that you're not worried about it. Kind of like when people feel guilty because they're not mourning a death as badly as the people around them. So what would you suggest that I do, because I have a feeling you're pretty much totally right. -- Posted by Apotheosis at 7:58 am on June 14, 2008 In my opinion, sexual harassment is such a huge deal partially because of the social stigmatization around the crime and around the victims. People tell you you'll never recover and expect you be to scarred for life, so you are. I don't think it's such a big deal, and if you don't think so either, good, that makes two of us. Live life. -- Posted by Anonymous at 4:55 pm on June 14, 2008 Quote: from Apotheosis at 6:28 pm on June 14, 2008 In my opinion, sexual harassment is such a huge deal partially because of the social stigmatization around the crime and around the victims. People tell you you'll never recover and expect you be to scarred for life, so you are. I don't think it's such a big deal, and if you don't think so either, good, that makes two of us. Live life. And this is why we get along so well.  I don't give a shit about being raped really, and probably won't if it happened again.  I completely agree with you.  And I'm fairly certain you know who I am -- Posted by Apotheosis at 8:46 pm on June 14, 2008 no idea -- Posted by Anonymous at 12:50 am on June 15, 2008 Quote: from Apotheosis at 7:16 am on June 15, 2008 no idea quite unlikely, dieggers -- Posted by Apotheosis at 1:32 am on June 15, 2008 no, really, no idea -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:06 am on June 16, 2008 Quote: from Apotheosis at 12:02 pm on June 15, 2008 no, really, no idea don't joke with me, my 4chan lolitabuddy -- Posted by Apotheosis at 12:07 pm on June 16, 2008 there's a lot of those -- Posted by Anonymous at 1:07 am on June 17, 2008 Quote: from Apotheosis at 10:37 pm on June 16, 2008 there's a lot of those we used to play rose online quite a bit and wolfgame too -- Posted by Apotheosis at 5:29 am on June 17, 2008 i think i played wolfgame with lw people like once