-- Posted by Anonymous at 3:53 pm on June 17, 2008 so i started outpatient for my ed awhile ago, but wasnt going along with anything until basically this week because the doctors were going to refrain me from summer plans. idk, like just getting on an eating schedule this week and not purging seems to have lifted such a big weight from me, cause im happier and i feel like i have mor eenergy. But at the same time, i feel like its bad that i'm giving it up. I always felt my eating disorder made me strong in a way, and now that i'm giving it away, i feel  like i'm doing something bad. I'm just so confused, and right now, I really need support. Is there anyone who has recovered and has advice or anything that kept them going. or even people who r in recovery. I just like to hear other peoples stories and get inspiration to keep me going -- Posted by jessica20110 at 8:38 pm on June 17, 2008 Oh my god. I start going to a psychiatrist for my eating disorder tomorrow, and I'm so scared of that. I'm already feeling that way. I know my mom's gonna get them to give me a diet-type chart, and I'm scared to death because I'll feel like I'm failing, and I'll want to throw up so bad. PM me and we can talk about this and get through it together, okay? -- Posted by anonymous2 at 11:52 pm on June 17, 2008 You can PM me if you want someone to talk to.