-- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:22 pm on June 21, 2008 I don't know if i'm actually depressed or not, but for the last couple of years, almost everyday, i've been hurting (emotionally). Now it's come to the point where i've given up on absolutely everything. I don't do the things that i used to before nor do i go out as much as i used to; i basically wake up in the morning, go to school, come back home and sleep. All i seem to do lately is sleep, sleep, and sleep some more. The only time when i'm not thinking of how bad my life is, is when i'm sleeping. I just don't care about anything anymore. Honestly, i just want to end it all, and thinking about it..it would cause me a lot less pain to just end it all instead of having to live this hell of a life that i'm living. I know it might sound selfish because there are people out there who care about me, but i'm trying to think of MYSELF and honestly, i can't put up with any of this anymore. By the way to top it off, i'm crying right now; great? =( . Do i sound depressed to you?! -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:24 pm on June 21, 2008 Oh and also, i've been eating like crazy lately. When i hurt, i eat. I used to be a thin girl (around 110 lbs.), but now i'm probably up to  120 lbs. (which i know is NOT bad), but it's all due to the fact that when i'm upset, i eat. Eating takes my mind off of the emotional pain. I can't stop stuffing myself. What if i end up being a 500 lbs. woman on the Maury show? *Sigh* .. this life of mine, it freaking stinks! =( -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:25 pm on June 21, 2008 Depression. I deal with that a lot too. You gotta keep yourself busy. Even if you don't wanna, just keep busy. Whatever it is. Anything. You'll feel better. -- Posted by LindaRains93 at 11:26 pm on June 21, 2008 listen maybe u just need someone to talk to about ur problems im available whenever pm me and exsplain my nsme is LindaRains93 -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:26 pm on June 21, 2008 Depression. I deal with that a lot too. You gotta keep yourself busy. Even if you don't wanna, just keep busy. Whatever it is. Anything. You'll feel better. ^ How in the world am i supposed to keep myself busy when i can't even get out of my bed? I don't have the "strength" to pull myself out and actually do things. I just lay in bed all day and rot. I don't have the "motivation" or the "energy" to get myself to accomplish anything, therefore..i suck =( -- Posted by lucid dreams19 at 11:26 pm on June 21, 2008 you definetly sound depressed. sound like i am most of the time Message me to talk about if u want -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:28 pm on June 21, 2008 listen maybe u just need someone to talk to about ur problems im available whenever pm me and exsplain my nsme is LindaRains93 ^ See, that's another one of my problems. I keep everything bottled up inside and NO ONE absolutely NO ONE knows anything about any of my problems (not even my best friend). Honestly, i do need someone to vent to because i've NEVER told anyone anything about any of my problems; i just keep everything inside of me, and one of these days..i'm going to blow. -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:29 pm on June 21, 2008 Quote: from fjnprincezz at 11:26 pm on June 21, 2008 Depression. I deal with that a lot too. You gotta keep yourself busy. Even if you don't wanna, just keep busy. Whatever it is. Anything. You'll feel better.   ^ How in the world am i supposed to keep myself busy when i can't even get out of my bed? I don't have the "strength" to pull myself out and actually do things. I just lay in bed all day and rot. I don't have the "motivation" or the "energy" to get myself to accomplish anything, therefore..i suck =( Why can you not get out of bed? -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:29 pm on June 21, 2008 you definetly sound depressed. sound like i am most of the time Message me to talk about if u want ^ *Sigh*, i knew it. Thanks, if i need to vent; i'll know where to go. -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:31 pm on June 21, 2008 Why can you not get out of bed? ^ I don't have the "energy" or the "willingness" to get myself out of bed. Lately, all i've wanted to do is SLEEP; which reminds me that i JUST woke up about half an hour ago. Also lately, i've actually been feeling pain inside of me (physically) like sharp needles poking my insides; it's weird & then i kind of get dizzy.. -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:33 pm on June 21, 2008 Quote: from fjnprincezz at 11:31 pm on June 21, 2008 Why can you not get out of bed?   ^ I don't have the "energy" or the "willingness" to get myself out of bed. Lately, all i've wanted to do is SLEEP; which reminds me that i JUST woke up about half an hour ago. Also lately, i've actually been feeling pain inside of me (physically) like sharp needles poking my insides; it's weird & then i kind of get dizzy.. You need to get out and be around people. Make an effort to do something everyday. Make an effort to be around other people. Friends, family. Make an effort. -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:39 pm on June 21, 2008 You need to get out and be around people. Make an effort to do something everyday. Make an effort to be around other people. Friends, family. Make an effort. ^ You don't understand, i just can't. It's not that i don't want to because of course i'd like to make the effort, but i just can't. I always feel sick & i always have pain (physically) and sometimes..my chest actually hurts. -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:40 pm on June 21, 2008 Quote: from fjnprincezz at 11:39 pm on June 21, 2008 You need to get out and be around people. Make an effort to do something everyday. Make an effort to be around other people. Friends, family. Make an effort. ^ You don't understand, i just can't. It's not that i don't want to because of course i'd like to make the effort, but i just can't. I always feel sick & i always have pain (physically) and sometimes..my chest actually hurts. Sounds like you should see a doctor. -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:48 pm on June 21, 2008 Sounds like you should see a doctor. ^ Yeah, probably. But my family is very different and if i were to tell them that i need to see a doctor because i think that i might be depressed, they would laugh in my face, not take me seriously, & just not understand. -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:52 pm on June 21, 2008 Quote: from fjnprincezz at 11:48 pm on June 21, 2008 Sounds like you should see a doctor.   ^ Yeah, probably. But my family is very different and if i were to tell them that i need to see a doctor because i think that i might be depressed, they would laugh in my face, not take me seriously, & just not understand. You said you're always feeling sick and having physical pain. What is there to laugh about? -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:54 pm on June 21, 2008 Anyways, i'm going to sleep. Thanks for everyone who posted. Goodnight. -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 11:55 pm on June 21, 2008 You said you're always feeling sick and having physical pain. What is there to laugh about? Quite honestly, you don't know my family. They wouldn't laugh about the fact that i'm feeling sick and having physical pain, but they wouldn't actually believe the fact that i'm depressed, but i'm ALWAYS cheerful and happy and hyper around them (aka. faking it). It's hard to explain how my family is.. -- Posted by Another Chance at 11:56 pm on June 21, 2008 Quote: from fjnprincezz at 11:55 pm on June 21, 2008 You said you're always feeling sick and having physical pain. What is there to laugh about?   Quite honestly, you don't know my family. They wouldn't laugh about the fact that i'm feeling sick and having physical pain, but they wouldn't actually believe the fact that i'm depressed, but i'm ALWAYS cheerful and happy and hyper around them (aka. faking it). It's hard to explain how my family is.. Of course I don't know your family. You're just not making sense. -- Posted by fjnprincezz at 12:01 am on June 22, 2008 Of course I don't know your family. You're just not making sense. ^ Gah, sorry, perhaps it's the fact that i just overdosed on Tynenol? Blah, i'm going to sleep. Goodnight!