After going through a hard time a few weeks ago at home and at school, all my friends were convinced I was suicidal.

Every day I got at least 2 people saying "Are you sure you're OK" or "You're really quiet, is there anything wrong?". At first, yes, there was something wrong, but by the time I'd felt able to talk about it...everyone stopped asking me.

My tutor, Mrs Edwards* didn't make matters any better. Every single time she saw me "Are you OK?". She obviously spoke to other staff members, because my friend's tutor, Mrs Williams* spoke to me and asked me what was wrong.

It was as if they didn't want me to be happy anymore, like they almost NEEDED something to be wrong with me. This didn't help. Eventually, I told my friend, Tanya* in the middle of a Geography lesson, because at the time, it actually seemed like she cared.

It really helped for a while. She was really supportive for about a week, and would always ask me if I needed someone to talk too. She was the only person who knew, until I told Sara*.

It was a relief that I told people 1 of my problems, but I still have a lot of emotion, even now, bottled up inside me. I've always been a private person, and it is as if everyone is trying to change the real me into someone idealistic and fake.

They want me to depressed, or that is what I felt about two days ago, because they want to change me, because they don't like who I am.